This mayyyy seem a little more drastic than what I actually mean. I’m not going to suddenly stop caring about everything in general, but I am aware that I care too much about the wrong things.. which is a little silly when you sit back and think about it.
For example, I wanted to take rubbish to my car the other day but when I looked out the window, someone was busy with their car which was parked next to mine, so I waited for them to finish then went out to my car. SO silly right? But I cared too much about what that person would think about me or what I was doing.. Even me writing this I can’t believe how stupid that sounds. Well.. Thats why I’m talking about this today. As I’ve mentioned before, I don’t have a lot of confidence, so trying to get me to go anywhere, on my own, when I’ve never been before is a big no no! I’d never catch a train somewhere on my own, if I haven’t already done it with someone before. Why? Because I care too much about making a mistake or looking like a tit.. Silly right? Well today, I’ve decided that it’s time I started caring LESS.
I don’t have a very exciting job, I get paid just above minimum wage and I do find it quite boring at times, but for some reason I stress myself out senseless. I worry about things that my managers get paid for and it has got to stop! I need to learn how to take a step back and let other people worry about things rather than me, at the end of the day I’m getting paid to stack a shelf and from now on thats all I’ll think about.
I need to stop caring about what people think of me when I’m out in public, especially as I’m probably never ever going to see them again or even remember what they look like 20 seconds after they’ve walked past me. People are always going to judge you no matter what just as I judge everyone I walk past, but I bet most people couldn’t care less what I thought of them.
The last thing I need to start caring less about is making so many friends. When I was younger I had loads of ‘best’ friends which I loved having. Now, as I grow older I’ve lost touch with so many of them that when I think back to all those memories we had together, it makes me a little sad. Then I think, my best friends now are bloody amazing, support me so much and are always there for me, that I really appreciate them and I should stop worrying about making more friends and worrying about those I’ve lost contact with. I’m a true believer in everything happens for a reason and I know that the people I’ve fallen out with or lost contact with aren’t meant to be in my life anymore. I’ll keep the memories forever, but I’m definitely going to stop caring about the fact we’re no longer friends anymore and care more about those who are my babes.