Why I need to care less

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This mayyyy seem a little more drastic than what I actually mean. I’m not going to suddenly stop caring about everything in general, but I am aware that I care too much about the wrong things.. which is a little silly when you sit back and think about it.

For example, I wanted to take rubbish to my car the other day but when I looked out the window, someone was busy with their car which was parked next to mine, so I waited for them to finish then went out to my car. SO silly right? But I cared too much about what that person would think about me or what I was doing.. Even me writing this I can’t believe how stupid that sounds. Well.. Thats why I’m talking about this today.  As I’ve mentioned before, I don’t have a lot of confidence, so trying to get me to go anywhere, on my own, when I’ve never been before is a big no no! I’d never catch a train somewhere on my own, if I haven’t already done it with someone before. Why? Because I care too much about making a mistake or looking like a tit.. Silly right? Well today, I’ve decided that it’s time I started caring LESS.

I don’t have a very exciting job, I get paid just above minimum wage and I do find it quite boring at times, but for some reason I stress myself out senseless. I worry about things that my managers get paid for and it has got to stop! I need to learn how to take a step back and let other people worry about things rather than me, at the end of the day I’m getting paid to stack a shelf and from now on thats all I’ll think about.

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I need to stop caring about what people think of me when I’m out in public, especially as I’m probably never ever going to see them again or even remember what they look like 20 seconds after they’ve walked past me. People are always going to judge you no matter what just as I judge everyone I walk past, but I bet most people couldn’t care less what I thought of them.

The last thing I need to start caring less about is making so many friends. When I was younger I had loads of ‘best’ friends which I loved having. Now, as I grow older I’ve lost touch with so many of them that when I think back to all those memories we had together, it makes me a little sad. Then I think, my best friends now are bloody amazing, support me so much and are always there for me, that I really appreciate them and I should stop worrying about making more friends and worrying about those I’ve lost contact with. I’m a true believer in everything happens for a reason and I know that the people I’ve fallen out with or lost contact with aren’t meant to be in my life anymore. I’ll keep the memories forever, but I’m definitely going to stop caring about the fact we’re no longer friends anymore and care more about those who are my babes.

KJ x

2 Comments

  1. 5th November 2017 / 11:50 am

    This was such a lovely post Kirsten, I find myself guilty of the same things in my day to day life. I very rarely go to the shop or out on my own, and I know deep down the reasons why but I just stopped doing it. It’s hard when you get older to see other people out with loads of their friends, but always remember that people change. Having fewer friends who care more about you, is more important in my eyes.

    We both need to be doing things we wouldn’t usually, and pushing ourselves to go out of our comfort zones! It doesn’t matter what job you do, there will always be that person who is higher up or on more money than you as well, I’ve learnt to just think past it and get on with my life. As long as you focus on the things in life that make you happy, that’s all that matters.

    I love how honest you’re with your posts, I wish I could be more like this!

    Alys

    • kiirstenjones
      5th November 2017 / 3:49 pm

      Awww thank you Alys. Yeah I agree it is hard, but then I realise if people wanted to be in my life they would, so them not making an effort proves to me they’re totally not worth it.
      You should honestly, it makes me feel good knowing I’ve got it off my chest and you’ll be so surprised how many people feel exactly the same as you. 😘

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